Astral Projection

Is your heart full of me in the morning glare?
Does time dance across your eyes while you sleep and do those necessary steps to dreaming include my body? I'm strangely at peace, and at home in your world. You have my moon landing and my fluttering flag, you have my armstrong bicep.
What is the past? Nothing- but a vague reminder of lessons learnt, tiny yellowed papyrus. When I feel the future, its on your fingerprint as you type, and its a huge new galaxy.
It is a childlike smile that I wear though its not a mask.
Am I beating out signals, sounding my trumpet, reading the scrolls of your existence? Where did you come from, are you sure that you weren't made for me. My longing is my new drug and my new high is your hands.
what is it?

Worst Week EVER

Sizzler!
VH1's successful blog, "Best Week Ever" has some real nimrods writing for them. In one quick read thru of their front page, I scanned not only "GAY-FACE" used but "FAG" used later on the page. This is shameful and disgusting- Espescially for VH1, who obviously is hiring monkeys of the street to do their writing as well as their video blogs... which consist of people that can barely read making us wait to see clips of tv shows. From this day forward, that blog is DEAD to me. I will not click, reference, or condone this kind of unreasonable bullshit towards gays. I'm insulted that a blog, which is about the Gayest thing ever, being used to talk trash about its fans. So, congrats, YOU TUBE, you have my vote for new ruler of the galaxy. I'll stick to my regular blogs by those shameful homosexuals Thanks! Fuck off Best Week EVER. FOREVER

fucking go nuts

The lack of politics or grace in chat rooms at times troubles me. I understand so much about gay men and general and why I do not generally assosciate with someone just for being gay. Yes, I understand the world is full of assholes and nice people and that sexuality has little to do with it. I guess what troubles me lately, as I attempt to reach towards positivity and contentment within my own life, how many just try to knock you down. A sad statement on gays in general. Do I not deserve respect and a discussion without getting a sermon about how 'shitty' my blog is? First of all, everyone is addicted to Something. Whether it be your own attitude of pissing all over chatters from the comfort of your own home. I dont get off that way. To me, chat is about me learning from others, hopefully making some new friends on this rough ride called life. I'm sick of being a target for people. My life has been filled with negative bullshit, and the last thing I'm looking for is a daily dose of negative perception thrown at me by strangers. I dont understand this human nature to destroy each other and bring each other down. It honestly makes me want to stop going to chat rooms at all. The barrier of monitor and internet between people has made some more ballsy than, of course, they would be in real life. We all make up our own perceptions of life. You can read this and disagree with everything I said, and that is completely fine with me. I hope to learn from that experience instead of being talked down to like a child. My creativity and my works are things that come out of me, and this blog is for me, its introspective.. even the sign on the door explains what this is to me- RAMBLINGS. Sometimes I just need to let my thoughts flow and if they are influenced by criticism, then that ruins the purpose of this beautiful thing that I want to share with people that know me or see my side of things. Of course, I am not always right. So, welcome to everyone checking this out for the first time. I hope in some way my words made you feel at home.

create your damn day!

It is hard to realize the power we have, in our everyday actions. Hope should be eternal and appreciated. We live those same cycles over and over and dont see the hamster wheel we call life. how liberating- dvds like 'what the bleep do we know' and 'create your day' are quite interesting. I highly recommend them. Music for the
week: Peaches- "Impeach my Bush", Sonic Youth- "Rather Ripped",
Cursive- "Happy Hollow". Here are some links to info about the artists.
Http://sonicyouth.com